The Holidays Are Here ! The Joy is Starting ... I have to do what?

 The impossible time of the year has started. Actually, the decorations started to appear in August but, now we are in the FULL SWING of Year End Holidays. 

Yeah!

BOO! Well, I can appreciate that. Since my birthday is an holiday I have a mixed bag about the whole thing. For every Happy Birthday I promptly reply "Happy St. Patrick's Day" Its a little ad nauseum but, I make it through the day just fine with a carrot cake and a nice meal and something sparkling. 

But, the next two months are literally my therapists worst nightmare because I have such Pollyanna view of this time frame. I have fond memories of family get togethers and trips to and fro for Thanksgiving and Christmas. It was a good time and New Years Eve was a highlight. 

Yet, this year and in this regime its harder and more difficult to be happy. There is literal genocide going on and there is a literal gestapo formed from a non military organization. I can't be happy because there is so much pain and suffering but, worse I can't afford anything anyway. 

I am furiously trying to pay my bills so, that when I do move I can have the down payment. There is a tinge of loneliness because I know I have to move. Worse, do we even need to discuss how many people (1 Million) lost their homes to disasters this year (Fires and Floods). 

Putting up a Christmas tree seems gauche and asking for a cup of coffee is well perfunctory. 

Thus, Give Money to Nonprofits NOT in your backyard maybe a state away or a different group like an all volunteer group or an First Aid group. 

Either way, I am sorry I won't do blogmas or vlogmas and I will try to smile but the season of joy this year it is not.